mildly irritated..

'at least you were frank about it now. thanks.'

whats that supposed to mean? i was never hiding anything to begin with. juz cuz somewhere along the way u picked up the wrong signals and chose to believe things ur way doesnt mean its my fault right? come on.. dont be so petty.

'We read the world wrong and say that it deceives us.'

nothing much, havent done much and its back to work tmr. dammitz.

the blog title says it all.. dun have much to blog abt nowadays also. life is dull and boring. its sleep, work, eat and occasionally drink. thats abt all.

For everything there is a season,
And a time for every matter under heaven:
A time to be born, and a time to die;
A time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted;
A time to kill, and a time to heal;
A time to break down, and a time to build up;
A time to weep, and a time to laugh;
A time to mourn, and a time to dance;
A time to throw away stones, and a time to gather stones together;
A time to embrace, And a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to seek, and a time to lose;
A time to keep, and a time to throw away;
A time to tear, and a time to sew;
A time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
A time to love, and a time to hate,
A time for war, and a time for peace.

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

coming down with a cold

didn't sleep well last night becuz i was coughing the whole night. woke up this morning with my throat feeling super uncomfortable. coughed a big blob of phlegm out. eeeewwwwwwww. then my nose feels runny, throat feels sore and i feel like im coming down with a fever. hate getting sick. esp when i know that taking a day off is juz gonna kill me with more work when i eventually go back to my little messy corner. *sigh*

had dinner with chums, taxidoor and irene becuz irene's date cancelled on her and she juz happened to ask us if we were available for dinner and chum's still owed her a treat for her bday? so i juz happily tagged along. thanks irene for initiating the dinner, thanks chummy for letting me tag along for the free dinner and the ride home, thanks taxidoor for paying for the dinner? hahaha

'I wanted a perfect ending. now i've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end. life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next. Delicious Ambiguity.'

sleepy days..

this is gonna be a short one because im feeling really tired. juz swung by to check on my emails and thought at the same time i'd juz put something down here. past few days i've juz been feelin really lethargic. the days seem to draggggg on while at work. im getting really sick of it. i dont think i've ever been so sick of work before. how???! how am i gonna survive till i get my fricking well-deserved bonus!!

these days im juz not doing much anymore. still tryin to find the motivation to cut down on my food and ciggie intake. *sigh* alright i shall head off to bed now or it'd juz be another fucking draggy day at work tmr... dammitz.

'Someone to love
Someone to touch
Someone to hold
Someone to know
Someone to trust'

is it that hard to find someone that fulfils the above and be reciprocal towards it?

barely survived an ah fun's injury prone day..

juz got back from the 2d1n teambuilding we had in JB. overall it was fun other then the fact that i suffered alot of injuries and my whole body was aching. damn suay. shall update on that slightly later when i get some pics from chummy.

had a few drinks with ftee and tg juz after gettin back into s'pore. nic joined us after she was done with work. decided not to drink anymore as we were all exhausted. went for a quick dinner at qiji and headed back home. after i got home, dunno y but i had weird thoughts over something. its not like i drank alot and i felt pretty awake, i was merely physically drained.

decided to go for a walk to clear my head. i realised i can almost think along the frequency of a person who's suicidal but its not like i am suicidal. but its scary. my personal life hasnt been all that great recently. maybe thats y i've been having these crazy thoughts. i imagine abt things that i know will nv happen but it appears seemingly real like as if it juz might happen.. this is totally not doing me any good. im afraid i might juz blurt out these crazy thoughts of mine which will totally upset my norm lifestyle.. to begin with do i even lead a norm lifestyle? with all that said, pls dun come asking me wad i was thinkin abt. like chummy says 'if i tell u, i'd have to kill u' and i dun wish to be a murderer so pls dun ask me..

'first time I looked in ur eyes I knew, there was something special inside of you
you awaken my passion and my curiousity
you were so sincere I knew you'd be there for me

you gave me joy that I never knew
you were sent here to love me cuz I needed you
you helped me get through the worst times in my life

you shared my sadness, my pain, my stride
whenever I dream the impossible dreams
you assured me that they would come true
you stayed in my corner no matter what life could bring
and I pledge my love to u

just like the rain falling to the ground
you washed away my frowns and turned my life around
you made everything good in my life that was bad
you're the greatest friend that I ever had
I want you to be right here beside me forever and a day

for you are my strength, you are my future
and I need you here to stay

what.. what can I give you
in return for the hope that you've given me
just ask and, whatever you want it will be, it will be

you are the piece of the puzzle I need
to make my life full length complete
I love you so and thanks for being my best friend..'

something to ponder on.. do you have such friends? hmmmms...

dun think i ever wanna celebrate my birthday again. no dinners, no cakes and most importantly no singing of the bday song! *faints*

and so i thought i could escape the whole birthday celebration thingy, boy was i wrong. met my whole family yday to go pay respects to my late grandpa, he passed away a few days after me bday. then my aunt planned to go dinner at some chinese restaurant at thomson plaza thereafter. i thought everyone forgot abt my bday, i was so so wrong. i felt loved but at the same time, i wished they had forgotten abt it. i wasnt up to the whole celebration thingy, juz wanted quiet and peaceful one.

luckily i had another not so close aunt who's bday was a few days earlier than mine and so i had someone to go thru all the embarrassing moments with. *phew* shall talk abt that slightly later. the food at the restaurant was pretty good but there were a few hiccups here and there, i was feeling nice then like as if i had a halo above my head therefore i didnt kick up a big fuss. there were a few things i was quite
impressed with tho.. there was this steamed prawn dish and they actually offered to de-shell it. at first i thought i heard wrongly but my cousins sitting next to me were like 'did u juz hear wad i did, like de-shell the prawns?' haha and de-shell it they did! very quickly and nicely... the heads of the prawns were still fully attached!!



and then came a venison dish.. it was yummy and i was again impressed with the presentation of the dish...




and then the dinner ended... and my aunt bought a cake. like awwww man. so we had to go thru all the rites of singing the birthday song and me being totally embarrassed cuz everyone in the restaurant was like staring. i really felt like hiding under the table. well for all that embarrassment i got quite a few red packets so i shan't complain. it was a fair exchange? haha.

wala's again..

so i left off yday sayin i had to zip off to wala's. met a friend there lucky we made it in time to get a decent table and seats. its crazy the band starts at ard 10 and by 9 all the seats are taken up and if u cant find seats my advice wld be juz to leave and find somewhere else unless u can survive standing for the rest of the night. another thing is the time they end their 1 for 1 is at 9 maybe thats y the bloody crowd packs in early.. duhhhHh.

so i had my usual 2 rounds of hoegaarden. i juz wish they have the big 750ml bottles back soon. its much more worth it then drinkin the 330ml bottles now. bleh! jill suggested to have wings and i was like cool since i havent had it in a long time. but we had a difficult time finishin it off. therefore im impressed with ah ho cuz she can wipe out the wings.. *pukes*

skinny chummy dropped by with her moley guy friend. haha :P lucky i was guarding the 2 extra stools i had. haha. kept telling her not to go st james cuz she's been there almost every wk i think for abt a month already although she says its only been 2 wks. tsk. then they ordered another portion of wings which made me sick even by looking at it. ohh ohh another thing chummy and i kept thinkin back abt that 1 time smally chummy was with us at wala's. think that was the fun-nest time we had at wala's. cuz there was ah ho, her friend (which skinny chummy brought up yday and we realised we didnt rem her name, hee.. sorry!), skinny and smally chummy, taxi door and myself. hope we can do it sometime again!

oh darn its back to work tmr... *sigh* dread the work but am looking forward to see smally chummy... missed her on friday. wonder if she has stuff to update me on for friday cuz i wasnt at work? hmmmms....