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so its been about 4mths since i last blogged. in the last 4mths i've done on 3 different diving trip and i have another 1 planned to redang this mth! hopefully the trip goes as planned. it has just been so amazing, do hope my finances can keep up with my enthusiasm. lol. been holding back to buy the equipment becuz i wasnt sure if i was gonna keep to this hobby but i think i'm ready to get abit of my own stuff now.

diving aside it has only been work and nothing much else to talk abt. work has still be horrid and i dont see how it will improve anytime soon. the amount of stress from the bosses, the management, the owners, the clients, my targets and goals.. its juz massive and i feel like i can hardly breathe. so many constraints yet the bosses think its ur business to straighten it out and they're only interested in seeing results and receiving good news, all others u are to absorb and buffer to ensure it doesnt get to them. sighh.... i need some balance but i dont know how to get it. well thats something for me to ponder about yea? for all those out there.. i know u're suffering too. a word of advice or rather something i practice... take things with a pinch of salt, dont get worked up, the more u get worked up the more the other party is one step closer to succeeding, theres only so much u can do-do whatever is within your means leave the rest to the others, listen more-talk less... lastly remember to breathe...

peace out.

new hobby... diving.

hey all i know its been a long time since i last blogged... to the extent that i had to crack my brains and try to remember wads the password to log on to the blog! haha.. i dont even know if anyone still checks my blog out... ayee doesnt really matter, i write to entertain myself anyways. ---> trying to make myself feel better, while obviously knowing the fact that im kinda writing to myself. lol

anyways.. nothing exciting has really happened all these months cept for the recent diving trip i went for. after much hesitation (yes, i've been wanting to pick up diving like since damn long ago) i finally got down to doing it. together with joey (the last time we planned didnt work out) michelle and the last unexpected join to the group... sarah. winnie dropped out becuz of unforseen circumstances--> i realise ppl love to use this excuse, i think its crap btw! so we decided on goin to pulau dayang cuz it was the cheapest compared to tioman and redang and being a learning trip where half the time u'd be panicking and not concentrating on what there is to see, we thought it was the wisest choice. so off we went on the last wkend of March. the rest is all history... its amazing underwater. the peace and tranquility.. and sights and serenity.. its juz puts u at peace seeing all the fishes swim by u... its juz so fucking amazing. juz only a wk after we are like about to plan for the next dive. the only downfall of this hobby is that it costs alot. but im not complaining, at least its a healthy hobby? ha well i urge all those who had always planned to pick up diving to really get down to doing it. its something u wont regret. :)

cheerios~

long overdue post..

i've been away for like so long im not sure wad to update anymore. in this absence i've gotten 2 more tattoos and many more other stuff, that some are not worth mentioning and others are for ya'll to find out.. ha.

caught the sneak preview of twilight today. slightly disappointed cuz was kinda expecting more but overall its still watchable. i've seen much worse movies. well there'll be a sequal to it.. cuz it ends with .......... ya i dont like such endings. tsk. went to orchard today and its one of those days u bump into hell lotta ppl? saw liah, lee sun sun, allyssa, jean kor.. is sg small or wad?? wanted to do xmas shoppin but didnt end up buying much. shall try again tmr after brunch. am lookin forward to it! to see me crabbie and chummy.. hope i dun get sleepy and lazy after brunch becuz there really isnt very much time left to do shopping! grrrrrr...

work has been ever so tiring.. with the implementation of a dumb new operating system. i've analysed and come to the conclusion that the only few reasons why we have been put through so much nonsense is because....
1) HI is being stingy and refuses to pay licence rights to use the good old operating system we were running on.
2) HI came up with this PMS to create high-paying jobs for the whole HUGE team who 'assists' to implement it.
3) HI came up with this PMS to force us to work like how all other dumb H properties function. 4) the gardener bribed them to make the program work towards her benefit (when it comes to the inflexibility of quoting rates).
5) HI is trying to prove their stupidity when they managed to come up with a dumb PMS but is unable to come up with a catering system to go along with it, and when asked why so.. the reason is becuz due to the downturn of the economy the catering management system project has been stalled till further notice.. so now we have to do double work! WA LA! how efficient! **refer to point 2.. maybe if we didnt have sucha huge implementation team who draw huge salaries we might have had some funds left to create the catering system?!

in short... the dumbasses are out to kill us! *spits* die u bastards! DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Fuck you, I won't do what you tell me!

Fuck you, I won't do what you tell me!

Motherfucker!

Urggh!

~Killing in the name, Rage against the machine~

meaningless conversation?

someone had a craving for roti prata so i suggested cheese prata at pasir panjang.. which she 'cleverly' linked it to being near pasir ris.. lol. maybe cuz both places had pasir in it? so it can also mean pasir panjang is near bukit panjang which is in turn near bukit timah? woohoo! hahahahahahahaaaaaa had a damn bloody good laugh! :P in the end also didnt make it to eat any prata... hiaks.

watched the coffin and saw v over this weekend... kinda disappointing. the coffin wasnt half as scary i thought it'd be and im not exactly a saw fan so yea, not much plot to begin with. so they ended it off in sucha way there'd still be saw vi... still think REC is the best i've watched in a long time.. y'all should go catch it if u havent!

sigh so sad the weekend has come to an end already. it'd be a long long week ahead. so not lookin forward to it........................ good night.. at least i get to do something i like before i have to go to work again. sleep... i hope i wake up a happy, chirpy person!

'Day after day I must face a world of strangers

Where I don't belong, I'm not that strong

It's nice to know that there's someone I can turn to

Who will always care, you're always there

When there's no getting over that rainbow

When my smallest of dreams won't come true

I can take all the madness the world has to give

But I won't last a day without you

Touch me and I end up singing

Troubles seem to up and disappear

You touch me with the love you're bringing

I can't really lose when you're near

If all my friends have forgotten half their promises

They're not unkind, just hard to find

One look at you and I know that I could learn to live

Without the rest, I found the best..'

when u and i collide..

my friend... dont assume u can read me like a book. when i let my defences down becuz u are a close friend and let u into my life is doesnt mean what u see is all there is to me..

i'm sorry i didn't read the signs and collided head on with u.. into something i never foresee was going to happen in the next hundred years.

i'm sorry u felt i've let u down when to begin with i knew shit abt what the heck was going on. i only realised recently only to find out i've already been deemed a liar when i had absolutely no intention of lying at all.

question is, am i even sorry? or am i juz being nice? i cld choose to confront u which im holding back cuz knowing me... it might turn out ugly, which is something i dont want cuz u are.. afterall.. a good friend. seriously, would u prefer to thrash this out? i dont want any of us to come out being bitter and all...

now i dunno how to close this chapter.. as much as u dunno how to. as much as she doesnt know how to. lets juz all hang then. till we find a solution if theres even one?

"If I am

Only here to watch you as you suffer,

I will let you down...

The answers we find,

Are never what we had in mind.

So we make it up as we go along...

You don't talk of dreams

I won't mention tomorrow.

And we won't make those promises that we can't keep..."

lazing & drinking my days away..

past few days haven't had much to do so i've caught up on abit of telly... i was watchin "Who's line is it anyway" i used to love that show. damn fricking hilarious! suddenly a thought came across my mind its like sucha simple pleasure in life yet i dont get to enjoy simple things like that? i seriously dont want my life to go on the way it is for the past year. its been too long, too much to take and its slowly eating me inside.

i wanna move on, i have to move on. then again life is always about wanting something but not being able to get it? now i got myself stuck in something i dunno how to get myself out of or do i even wanna get myself outta it? u see.... me life stinks.

so glad im on leave for 1 day tmr... at least i can avoid the monday blues. u all will not understand how precious juz goin on ONE day leave means to me. laze laze laze laze laze.......... let me hope and pray that nobody from the office or clients calls me tmr.... *rolls eyes*

hello.. its been a bloody long time.

yes trust me i know its been like a month since i got down to blogging.. there has been so many instances whereby i mention "i will definitely blog this down!" but yea knowing me i never quite got down to doing and once the moment passes, my memory fails me. ha like whats new?

time is never on my side. tell me i have bad time management skills but i seriously dont think the problem lies with me? why can't i go through a simple day like how others do.. a day where i can say "ok, time to go home cuz i've finished my work." i can never relate to that becuz my work is neverending.. i never go through a day feeling like i've accomplished enough and done all i am required to.. is this the way it has to be? alright enough of my endless grumbling...

moving on.....

the past week has been a queer one. my emotions are hard to decipher and even harder to control? shan't elaborate any further till i substantiate what im feeling?

"This ain't a movie no

No fairy tale conclusion ya'll

It gets more confusing everyday

Sometimes it's heaven sent

Then we head back to hell again

I hang up you call

We rise and we fall

And we feel like just walking away

As our love advances

We take second chances

Though it's not a fantasy

I still want you to stay

Take it slow

Maybe we'll live and learn

Maybe we'll crash and burn

Maybe you'll stay, maybe you'll leave,

maybe you'll return

Maybe another fight

Maybe we won't survive

But maybe we'll grow

We never know"