wedding bells are ringing..

cw and lou finally got hitched.. it wasn't easy i heard but im glad they pulled thru it. here's to wishing them all the best. here's some pics we took. we're really a spastic bunch. LOL.

the couple with the cute lil girls

the bodyguards to the mini cooper.

the bride and i

the ever-spastic bride

the crazy bunch

me with wendy's big dumb glasses

that's wendy!

ok now to talk about the whole experience. the church part was abit duh. not that the church wasn't nice or anything but the pastor/priest.. or whatever u call him in catholic terms was really queer. he was slurring and half the time he didn't quite know what he was talking about or maybe it was just me that couldn't understand him? but i refuse to think the fault lies with me even though i was surviving on like 3hrs of sleep. ha. it looked disorganised, or rather he was the disorganised one?

then we proceeded to grand hyatt for the lunch reception. it was the same function room charlene had her wedding dinner at too. Sir Stamford Room. i didnt quite like that room. it looked old but yea its grand hyatt what do u expect? the food was nothing to shout about too. the service however i must say has improved. sorry for being such a critic. thats what working in a hotel does to u..

so anyways cw & lou hired some wedding planners to run the show for them. guess it takes alot of hassle away from both of them cuz they're both busy people. there was this wedding singer.. they sounded ok, did some up tempo songs not the boring stuff couples normally like to use. so anyways i was telling the rest IF I EVER get married i'd hire shirlyn and the unxpected to perform.. and yes my 'hop-in' instead of march in will still be to Fatboy Slim's, Rockefeller Skank . hahahahahahaaaa

angels or devils?

this is the last time
that I'm ever gonna come here tonight
this is the last time - I will fall
into a place that fails us all - inside

I can see the pain in you
I can see the love in you
but fighting all the demons will take time
it will take time
the angels they burn inside for us
are we ever
are we ever gonna learn to fly
the devils they burn inside of us
are we ever gonna come back down
come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold

this is the last time
that I'm ever gonna give in tonight
are there angels or devils crawling here?
I just want to know what blurs and what is clear - to see
still I can see the pain in you
and I can see the love in you
and fighting all the demons will take time
it will take time

the angels they burn inside for us
are we ever
are we ever gonna learn to fly
the devils they burn inside of us
are we ever gonna come back down - come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could break us

if I was to give in - give it up
- and then
take a breath - make it deep
cause it might be the last one you get
be the last one that could make us cold
you know that they could make us cold
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold

~Dishwalla, angels or devils.

today was probably the first time i've seen boss throw her temper. never seen her so upset before. it scares me.. scares me alot. i didn't mean for things to end up like that but i guess its about payback time. i've had enough of bitching and i seriously want to end it once and for all. im not asking for him to back down. i will... if only she'd allow me to. *sighs

another emo moment

couldn't sleep last night and not wanting to waste the night away cuz i wasn't gonna be working today i went out to catch 2 late night or rather early morning movies. watched 'made of honor' and 'what happens in las vegas'. yea no-brainers are good for that time of the day.

i kinda liked made of honor. patrick demsey is rather cute.. but its very fairy tale-ish i felt. i mean like how it always end happily ever after when life in fact is hardly ever the case? but still being the sucker that i am i still teared during the scene where tom managed to win hannah over juz when she was about to exchange vows with an ugly scottish guy in the chapel. ha. it was another emo moment where i felt how nice it was for him to finally get something that he had wanted so much. i mean how many times do such things actually happen? especially of such big significance? dah.. i dunno..

what happens in las vegas was damn boring.. it couldn't even keep me awake. gee.. yea nothing much to say about that show cept maybe cameron diaz looks really old and ashton kucher.. urms doesn't look very good? ha

well i think i've been drinking way too much these couple of weeks. yesterday for the first time i was afraid of the smell of beer when i opened a can of kil and i ended up only taking a few sips but i dont suppose this fear will last for long. i resolve to die of either lung cancer or liver failure? ha...

Hold up

Hold on

Don't be scared

You'll never change what's been and gone

May your smile

Shine on

Don't be scared

Your destiny may keep you warm

Cos all of the stars

Are fading away

Just try not to worry

You'll see them some day

Take what you need

And be on your way

And stop crying your heart out

Get up

Come on

Why're you scared?

You'll never change

What's been and gone

~Oasis, Stop crying your heart out

where did it all go wrong?

But I hope you know that it won't let go

It sticks around with you until the day you die

And I hope you know that it's touch and go

I hope the tears don't stain the world that waits outside.

Where did it all go wrong?

~Oasis, where did it all go wrong?

another zombie-fied day at work..

so i couldn't sleep last night.. was chattin on msn till like 2 and i decided to log off when everyone left me to go to bed.. i ended up taking a walk around my estate while taking a few puffs. had a good scolding from my mum when i got back cuz apparently she heard me leaving the house and decided to get up and wait for me to get home to give me a tongue-lashing. bah. anyways i only managed to get like 2hrs of sleep and i was really malfunctioning at work. and today was one of those days i felt my boss treats me a like a slave. dammits.

the walk made me realise i have so much on my mind. some are senseless, some are worthless and some are juz not worth mentioning.

i hope i havent been scaring u these couple of days. i meant what i said and i'd never do anything to sabotage the kinda bond we've built up all this time. i'd not ask for anything more. i can't? i won't la... :D

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core
But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you i'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start
Ohhhh
But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible
So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
Cuz talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When you're asleep
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

-always had this song but never really paid attention to it till ked asked me abt it the other day
~Secondhand Serenade, Fall For You

my train of thoughts.. think the train might be derailing?

i've been getting funny ideas in my head. super random and weird ones.. stuff that has absolutely no relation to whatever i might be doing there and then. am i losing it? might be... these couple of days have been wayyyyyyy too exciting for me. wonder how much more my weak heart can take?

Look at us baby, up all night
Tearing our love apart
Aren't we the same two people who live
through years in the dark?
Ahh...Every time I try to walk away
Something makes me turn around and stay
And I can't tell you why

When we get crazy,it just ain't to right,
(try to keep you head, little girl)
Girl, I get lonely, too
You don't have to worry
Just hold on tight
(don't get caught in your little world)'
Cause I love you
Nothing's wrong as far as I can see
We make it harder than it has to be
and I can't tell you why
no, baby, I can't tell you why
I can't tell you why
No, no, baby, I can't tell you why
I can't tell you why
I can't tell you why

~Eagles, I can't tell you why

got a new tat..

had an urge last week to get another tattoo but the urge came too late on a sunday for me to satisfy so i postponed it to this sunday instead. so off we went, ked and i to visit wendy in JB. went there with no idea what kinda tattoo i wanted. i juz wanted something in black, maybe a symbol, maybe a sign? and this was what i ended up with... like wendy said 'eh did u realise that what u tattooed wasn't what u asked for?' hahaha






then we went for dinner shortly after getting the tattoo done. oh in between ked and i went shopping and we bought some stuff. i bought a pair of chucks and a tee and ked got a tee and a cap. we had bak kut teh at some roadside stall but it wasnt really good. and now ked and i are grumbling over msn that we're hungry. haha













had a long walk back cuz the queues for the bus were insanely LONG. so we walked from jb customs --> woodlands checkpoint --> woodlands central and from there took a bus to woodlands mrt. and poor me was struggling to walk back from buona vista mrt to home cuz the ankle started to hurt. i think i took like 20mins to get back when normally it takes less than 10mins?


ohhhh lets backtrack a lil... i was at wala wala... yet again. last night with keddy and may. it was my 1st encounter that they didnt allow more ppl to go upstairs because it was overcrowded but like may said it cld be because i always get there early so i dont see it happening? quite true. so you ling came along awhile later and she was wearing the same coloured top as shirlyn. they both looked like zebras.. haha. ling and her friend were really entertaining. stupid ling made me go over and bluff her friend to drink in the end i had to finish my own drink and theirs too. they were juz pushing the jug around.. really doing injustice to the alcohol and i cldn't take it any further so i decided to wipe out the whole jug. okok i was juz being like how an alcoholic behaves! lol.. i had good fun with those 3... we shall do it again some other time.. =D

frustration sets in

its been a rough week at work.. especially after the very sickening revenue meeting i had to sit in on thursday. i felt humiliated but i guess i could walk out and laugh about it. i feel like injustice has set upon me. i still dont understand why i have to tolerate all this. someone please give me a reason?? enlighten me.. or do i need to sit under the bodhi tree to meditate to finally achieve nirvana?

"When you get to this, then thoughts become still without being stilled, calmness and insight arise without being produced, the mind appears without being revealed. To try to liken it to the body of cosmic space or the light of a thousand suns would be to be further away than the sky is from the earth. "

"If you believe you are enlightened, you are actually a little bit crazy."

i think i believe in the latter more then the former. i have come back to the question again of how much more can i tolerate? its juz not worth all the heartache and frustations...

its getting harder and harder to breathe..

sorry i havent updated my blog ever since i got back from Japan but i wld suppose that those who know me well enough to know that i even have a blog wld have heard that it wasn't a very enjoyable trip. oh wells... if i ever get down to uploading the pics or getting it from my cousins and post it up somewhere i'll let u all know yea?

so moving on, the title of this blog is as such becuz i am coming down with a cold. the very day i went back to work i became sick. its either i havent quite accustomed myself back to the sucky sg weather or im simply juz allergic to work. the 1st day back at work was bad... as usual. assholes not covering my work well but i've grumbled way too much on that so i shan't start again. it was so bad i had to spend like half a good day at work yesterday, on a sat. which totally sucks. -sigh- well at least my sat ended on a good note cuz i was at wala. =D

juz came back from watching 'over her dead body' at lido and the cinema was in a really bad state. shaw honestly needs to do some major revamp to the place man. i felt like i was in some eng wah cinema in like clementi 10yrs ago.. and in ked's terms 'yea there were even mosquitos there!' hahahaha those were the days. then there were like some malays (2 girls and a guy) ked thought they looked like indonesians tho, there were like chatting all the fricking way in malay. it get so annoyed that i had to turn around and go 'do u mind not talking?!' and they still continued... until i turned again and gave them the killer stare that they decided to shut up. i was at this point if they were still gonna open their gaps i was gonna drag them out and go like THERE U GO, U CAN CHAT HERE IF U WANT! but that wld take way too much effort to carry out. haha so anyways the show was really cheesy but light-hearted.. we decided we didnt wanna watch something too tensing on the brain on a sunday. heh. i tot eva longoria looked pretty good.

after the show we went to lau pa sat to satisfy my craving for sting ray. yummy. i suddenly miss all those times after afternoon shift where we went suppering all over. now i feel so suaku cuz i hardly have time to go out after work on wkdays. -sulks- and even back then with all the good suppers i wasnt as fat as i am now. like what the heck is happening to me....