juz got back from the 2d1n teambuilding we had in JB. overall it was fun other then the fact that i suffered alot of injuries and my whole body was aching. damn suay. shall update on that slightly later when i get some pics from chummy.
had a few drinks with ftee and tg juz after gettin back into s'pore. nic joined us after she was done with work. decided not to drink anymore as we were all exhausted. went for a quick dinner at qiji and headed back home. after i got home, dunno y but i had weird thoughts over something. its not like i drank alot and i felt pretty awake, i was merely physically drained.
decided to go for a walk to clear my head. i realised i can almost think along the frequency of a person who's suicidal but its not like i am suicidal. but its scary. my personal life hasnt been all that great recently. maybe thats y i've been having these crazy thoughts. i imagine abt things that i know will nv happen but it appears seemingly real like as if it juz might happen.. this is totally not doing me any good. im afraid i might juz blurt out these crazy thoughts of mine which will totally upset my norm lifestyle.. to begin with do i even lead a norm lifestyle? with all that said, pls dun come asking me wad i was thinkin abt. like chummy says 'if i tell u, i'd have to kill u' and i dun wish to be a murderer so pls dun ask me..
'first time I looked in ur eyes I knew, there was something special inside of you
you awaken my passion and my curiousity
you were so sincere I knew you'd be there for me
you gave me joy that I never knew
you were sent here to love me cuz I needed you
you helped me get through the worst times in my life
you shared my sadness, my pain, my stride
whenever I dream the impossible dreams
you assured me that they would come true
you stayed in my corner no matter what life could bring
and I pledge my love to u
just like the rain falling to the ground
you washed away my frowns and turned my life around
you made everything good in my life that was bad
you're the greatest friend that I ever had
I want you to be right here beside me forever and a day
for you are my strength, you are my future
and I need you here to stay
what.. what can I give you
in return for the hope that you've given me
just ask and, whatever you want it will be, it will be
you are the piece of the puzzle I need
to make my life full length complete
I love you so and thanks for being my best friend..'
something to ponder on.. do you have such friends? hmmmms...
