where did it all go wrong?

But I hope you know that it won't let go

It sticks around with you until the day you die

And I hope you know that it's touch and go

I hope the tears don't stain the world that waits outside.

Where did it all go wrong?

~Oasis, where did it all go wrong?

another zombie-fied day at work..

so i couldn't sleep last night.. was chattin on msn till like 2 and i decided to log off when everyone left me to go to bed.. i ended up taking a walk around my estate while taking a few puffs. had a good scolding from my mum when i got back cuz apparently she heard me leaving the house and decided to get up and wait for me to get home to give me a tongue-lashing. bah. anyways i only managed to get like 2hrs of sleep and i was really malfunctioning at work. and today was one of those days i felt my boss treats me a like a slave. dammits.

the walk made me realise i have so much on my mind. some are senseless, some are worthless and some are juz not worth mentioning.

i hope i havent been scaring u these couple of days. i meant what i said and i'd never do anything to sabotage the kinda bond we've built up all this time. i'd not ask for anything more. i can't? i won't la... :D

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core
But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you i'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start
Ohhhh
But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible
So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
Cuz talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When you're asleep
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

-always had this song but never really paid attention to it till ked asked me abt it the other day
~Secondhand Serenade, Fall For You

my train of thoughts.. think the train might be derailing?

i've been getting funny ideas in my head. super random and weird ones.. stuff that has absolutely no relation to whatever i might be doing there and then. am i losing it? might be... these couple of days have been wayyyyyyy too exciting for me. wonder how much more my weak heart can take?

Look at us baby, up all night
Tearing our love apart
Aren't we the same two people who live
through years in the dark?
Ahh...Every time I try to walk away
Something makes me turn around and stay
And I can't tell you why

When we get crazy,it just ain't to right,
(try to keep you head, little girl)
Girl, I get lonely, too
You don't have to worry
Just hold on tight
(don't get caught in your little world)'
Cause I love you
Nothing's wrong as far as I can see
We make it harder than it has to be
and I can't tell you why
no, baby, I can't tell you why
I can't tell you why
No, no, baby, I can't tell you why
I can't tell you why
I can't tell you why

~Eagles, I can't tell you why

got a new tat..

had an urge last week to get another tattoo but the urge came too late on a sunday for me to satisfy so i postponed it to this sunday instead. so off we went, ked and i to visit wendy in JB. went there with no idea what kinda tattoo i wanted. i juz wanted something in black, maybe a symbol, maybe a sign? and this was what i ended up with... like wendy said 'eh did u realise that what u tattooed wasn't what u asked for?' hahaha






then we went for dinner shortly after getting the tattoo done. oh in between ked and i went shopping and we bought some stuff. i bought a pair of chucks and a tee and ked got a tee and a cap. we had bak kut teh at some roadside stall but it wasnt really good. and now ked and i are grumbling over msn that we're hungry. haha













had a long walk back cuz the queues for the bus were insanely LONG. so we walked from jb customs --> woodlands checkpoint --> woodlands central and from there took a bus to woodlands mrt. and poor me was struggling to walk back from buona vista mrt to home cuz the ankle started to hurt. i think i took like 20mins to get back when normally it takes less than 10mins?


ohhhh lets backtrack a lil... i was at wala wala... yet again. last night with keddy and may. it was my 1st encounter that they didnt allow more ppl to go upstairs because it was overcrowded but like may said it cld be because i always get there early so i dont see it happening? quite true. so you ling came along awhile later and she was wearing the same coloured top as shirlyn. they both looked like zebras.. haha. ling and her friend were really entertaining. stupid ling made me go over and bluff her friend to drink in the end i had to finish my own drink and theirs too. they were juz pushing the jug around.. really doing injustice to the alcohol and i cldn't take it any further so i decided to wipe out the whole jug. okok i was juz being like how an alcoholic behaves! lol.. i had good fun with those 3... we shall do it again some other time.. =D

frustration sets in

its been a rough week at work.. especially after the very sickening revenue meeting i had to sit in on thursday. i felt humiliated but i guess i could walk out and laugh about it. i feel like injustice has set upon me. i still dont understand why i have to tolerate all this. someone please give me a reason?? enlighten me.. or do i need to sit under the bodhi tree to meditate to finally achieve nirvana?

"When you get to this, then thoughts become still without being stilled, calmness and insight arise without being produced, the mind appears without being revealed. To try to liken it to the body of cosmic space or the light of a thousand suns would be to be further away than the sky is from the earth. "

"If you believe you are enlightened, you are actually a little bit crazy."

i think i believe in the latter more then the former. i have come back to the question again of how much more can i tolerate? its juz not worth all the heartache and frustations...

its getting harder and harder to breathe..

sorry i havent updated my blog ever since i got back from Japan but i wld suppose that those who know me well enough to know that i even have a blog wld have heard that it wasn't a very enjoyable trip. oh wells... if i ever get down to uploading the pics or getting it from my cousins and post it up somewhere i'll let u all know yea?

so moving on, the title of this blog is as such becuz i am coming down with a cold. the very day i went back to work i became sick. its either i havent quite accustomed myself back to the sucky sg weather or im simply juz allergic to work. the 1st day back at work was bad... as usual. assholes not covering my work well but i've grumbled way too much on that so i shan't start again. it was so bad i had to spend like half a good day at work yesterday, on a sat. which totally sucks. -sigh- well at least my sat ended on a good note cuz i was at wala. =D

juz came back from watching 'over her dead body' at lido and the cinema was in a really bad state. shaw honestly needs to do some major revamp to the place man. i felt like i was in some eng wah cinema in like clementi 10yrs ago.. and in ked's terms 'yea there were even mosquitos there!' hahahaha those were the days. then there were like some malays (2 girls and a guy) ked thought they looked like indonesians tho, there were like chatting all the fricking way in malay. it get so annoyed that i had to turn around and go 'do u mind not talking?!' and they still continued... until i turned again and gave them the killer stare that they decided to shut up. i was at this point if they were still gonna open their gaps i was gonna drag them out and go like THERE U GO, U CAN CHAT HERE IF U WANT! but that wld take way too much effort to carry out. haha so anyways the show was really cheesy but light-hearted.. we decided we didnt wanna watch something too tensing on the brain on a sunday. heh. i tot eva longoria looked pretty good.

after the show we went to lau pa sat to satisfy my craving for sting ray. yummy. i suddenly miss all those times after afternoon shift where we went suppering all over. now i feel so suaku cuz i hardly have time to go out after work on wkdays. -sulks- and even back then with all the good suppers i wasnt as fat as i am now. like what the heck is happening to me....

im leaving on a jet plane but i know when i'll be back again.. ha

so i'll be setting off to tokyo in like 6hrs time. frantically trying to pack wadever i need now and hopefully i dont leave anything out. anyways i shld be fine, im always the light traveller and i only bring along and require the most basic necessities. :) im excited about the trip becuz its been quite awhile since i went so far for so long? yea the trips i've been making these few couple of years have always been for like max 5 days and doesn't require a flight of more than 4hrs? yea thereabouts... but im not excited abt my old cousin going along.. bleh, i dont even wanna go into that now.

skinny chums called me this evening to tell me the US trip is off for her cuz she doesnt think its worth it to go alone cuz she'll need to rent a car to get around and for her to pay alone... its costly. oh wells.. i will still try to work it out with my aunt when i see her in JPN, maybe she might be kind enough to fly me to US and lemme sponge off her. afterall im like her only niece that hasn't visited her in hawaii yet. well if that really doesnt work out then i hope UK will welcome me. -_-

okies a few words before i leave... as if im going away for damn long.


- smally chums aka my gf.. dont miss me too much k? i know its gonna be painful without me around to 'assist' you at work but you'll always be in my thoughts k! *muaks* and i'll remember that taxidoor told me not to worry and that i dont have to get anything for u 2! yaY... hahaha


- my other specs fanatic aka bestie.. don't miss me! i know u won't.. piece of crap! and u actually tried to ask me to go to wala this sat, i was so close to kicking u luckily we were only chattin off msn! tsk tsk..


- ah yin.. i'll bring u some munchies back cuz u bgt me that you-all-think-its-sweet-but-i-don't-think-it-is candy back for me from turkey! hee


- beLLo.. i hope u're fine, sorry i havent had much time to chat with u and im kinda shocked to hear the news last evening. i promise i'll meet up with u when i get back and then we can talk k? *hugs*


- my lil mozzitoe moo.. don't miss my presence off msn cuz thats the closest u get anyways? heh. i'll webbie u when i get back k? *smacks*


i dont know who else reads my blog.. if i missed u out.. u know u wun get anything from me! hahahahahahaaaaaa i dont plan to buy much anyways so dont hope for too much k? :P


i'll be back sooooooooooooooooooooooooonnn... toooooo soooooooooooooooooooooon! peace out!