that used to be my playground..

was chatting with ah yin earlier this afternoon sometime after lunch.. cuz i was feeling sleepy and didnt wanna work too hard on a monday cuz theres still like 4 long days to go before the workweek ends. BAH! its a bloody torturous cycle...

anyways as i was saying i was chattin with ah yin and she was apologising to me for having abruptly ending a conversation we were having the night before cuz she was at work and needed to log off to prepare for the electricity shut off, they call it something like high tension shut down? some crap that they do every now and then to test that all our backup resources are intact juz in case something really happens. then we started reminiscing abt the old times.....

how it used to be so fun going thru all those crap with our buddies. it really makes alot of difference working with the ppl u like and get along with. and so ah yin was saying she remembered the previous time she was on night shift on high tension shut down together with nick.. i remember i was also ever on midnight once on hi tension but i cant remember who i was working with, muz've been someone who didnt matter much! ha. but well i remember those times when i was on shift and fidelio was like down for the whole morning.. i was on shift with jasper and both of us had to redo all our checkout transactions which was like a whole fricking drawer full. and also there was once we had waitboxes all the way till like 9pm. that was my longest morning shift, it ended at ard 11pm. that was when shimin was still ard and jean herself was monitoring the rm situation.

that was all good fun. its sad that such history will never repeat itself. i muz say all that groomed us into the talented ppl that we all are now! the present kiddos have a long way to go before they'd ever be like us. *evil grin* lol

oh another thing.. chummy was being irritating today. bleh! last thursday while we were at suntec walkin ard after lunch i told her i felt like buying a 'lil piggy' to munch on. u know those lil cute thangs in a plastic basket that they sell during mid-autumn festival? she refused to lemme buy it cuz i was already munchin on a pretzel and having my honey green pearl tea. she went to buy like 6 'BIG PIGGIES' during the weekend and she refused to let me share it with anyone else. its like punishment to me for being greedy?! all i wanted was a lil bit of my childhood.. *sniffs* and the worst thing is the big piggies didnt even come in the cute baskets, that was the whole point of eating that fuckin piece of flour?! and now i still have like 4 big piggies to go...... *groans*

but chummy no matter how u torture me.. im still glad for having u ard. sounds abit sadist eh? but really, i dunno wad i'd be without u ard. i need uuuuuuuuuu.. to answer my silly qns abt work, to send me home after work!, to have lunch and fetch water tog with me, to listen to me sing all the weird songs that ppl dun normally sing(n u actually know the songs too!), to pek zao with, to listen to me ngam ngam cham cham only to have me rebutt u that u gg yy and most importantly to slap my back to my senses when i lose track of where im headin towards... thank u. i love u. *muah!*

and it comes tumbling down..

ever had the feeling that everything seems to be finally moving on fine for you? after so long.. after all the shit u had been put thru. its like u finally get to see the sunshine after braving the rain... but all thats not meant to be. u juz need 1 little setback to bring u back to where u started off from. when others say life is very fragile im beginning to think that happiness is very fragile too. theres only a very thin line that seperates happiness from sadness. and with that 1 little setback i've been kicked back into the region of sadness and darkness.

chummy u are right. i didnt need that person back in my life. it was a mistake to even let that person creep back into my life. and so now im suffering the repercussions of my dumbness. this time i really want out... and nothing more to do with that person...

and here i am again building up my new defences and having to work towards being happy... its sucha chore.

"How do I, say goodbye, to what we had?
The good times that made us laugh, always come back,
I thought we'd get, to see forever,
But forever's gone away,"

Good riddance i might say?

guest appearance...

headed back to wala's again yday.. its like a weekly affair thingy. but i really prefer sitting down having a few drinks and a live band to keep u entertained rather than going clubbing... feel im too old for clubbing. it makes my body ache a whole lot for the next few days and it leaves my ears buzzing for the next day which is highly irritating.

and i had the company of 2 girls.. 1 of which that has disappeared for like the longest time. it was nice meeting her again. =) im gonna post a pic of them which i took last night even tho i know 1 of them will come after my blood cuz she looks white in the pic... aiya its juz the flash and cuz u have make up on but bear doesnt :P




well... hope we'd have many more outings of such before bear disappears again? cheerios!

soon to be smoke free?

its been 2 days since i last took a puff. think its been easier this time as compared to all my previous attempts, its not really considered as attempts because i really did stop smoking for quite some time before succumbing back into the habit again. i remember clearly i used to suffer from horrible withdrawal symptoms like runny nose, watery eyes, feeling lousy the whole day and every little thing that went wrong would make me 'snap' and was just easily irritated. now i suffer from none of those but instead i have alot of craving for different kinds of food and im perpetually looking for stuff to snack on. abit like how pregnant woman behave? although im not quite sure cuz i havent really been through pregnancy??

u all muz be thinking y i've suddenly decided to quit smoking? honestly im not quite sure myself i juz thought its about time i stopped or i'd never get down to doing it? i find it amazing myself that im finally beginning to think straight? haha. it really takes massive amt of determination in not succumbing to temptation. picking up a ciggie is really easy but try having a ciggie put in front of u and not having to pick it up... its like HELL.

so now the plan is to quit smoking altogether. and smally chummy stop smoking in front of me, its abt time u quit too! dun gimme the crap abt quitting next yr! *faints* after i stop smoking and which by then i'd have put on hell lotta weight becuz of the snacking, i will need to start planning a regular exercise regime. that is of course provided if i keep to it! well if i can quit smoking i dont see y i cant be determined to lose all the excess baggage! pls wish me luck..

check this song and mtv out..

梁汉文 + 杨千嬅 - 滚

i really like this song and mtv.. hope that u all are able to view it... today was rather uninteresting cept we 3 chummies finally met up to have lunch together. then there was some drama cuz we bumped into someone we were hoping not to bump into becuz i had to lieeeee to get her out of the way so that the 3 of us chummies cld enjoy lunch together-gether. oh wells.. then chummy #1 and i came up with names for each other... its skinny+funny+smally. go guess who's who. lol. left work slightly later than usual becuz TC made me stay to do something and i was NOT to go home until i had it completed. hmpf! but we still made it in time to koufu to satisfy chummy #2's craving for ban mian. had a long wait for cab to go home.. ended up calling all the nonsense cab operators until we got one. and i was like feeling tired. tsk tsk.. so much for efficient public transportation in s'pore. when u need it most it fails on u. *spits*

lazy days...

its been quite a few days since i got down to blogging. wkends now are purely for drinking, chilling and staying out till late which explains y i nv have the time to blog about my interesting wkends? haha like real. ok lets backtrack abit... i think i left off from last thursday? i shall start from thursday anyway cuz i cant think back any further than that!

THursday
went to MOS with nickers and ah yin. there were 2 others who were supposed to go but somehow didnt turn up. well its alright, had silly fun with these 2 buddies of mine. had a couple of weird incidents too but i shan't touch on that.

FRiday
after like 2hrs of rest, headed off to work. was pretty ok and alive until i had to go outdoors for a couple of sales calls. think the oh-so-hot weather killed me. went back to the office and started to malfunction shortly after. chummy warned me big big time not to go clubbing the night before if i had to work the next day cuz she says im not gettin any younger, think she's afraid i might juz drop dead and die?? lol so after work we went to our fav n most convenient watering-hole, paul's. quite a turn out only missing my other chums. even mr gopal came! wld have been more fun if i was more 'alive'... haha

SAturday
decided to go for a haircut before going to meet chums for dinner. aye it took so darn long, thats the thing abt being off on wkends like everyone else... sighs. dropped chums a msg to tell her i might be slightly late cuz i was at the hairdresser's and she replied 'no worries but you really didnt have to get your hair set just for this date..' i was laughing so hard i nearly died and everyone ard me thought i was CRAZY. oh wells thats my chums and thats y i love her so much, so full of shit. had dinner at food republic in wisma then headed over to emerald hill no. 5 cuz chums was supposed to do some mystery shopping for her friend for their services. got kinda bored so we headed back down to wala wala's...

SUnday
had lunch with m at taka's coffeeclub. its been awhile since i last went there. had my regular ceasar salad with rosemary chicken. tasted as good as before maybe even better? booked tickets to watch no reservations at cine. i like that show. its a no-brainer and kinda predictable but i personally feel its a rather suitable movie to catch on a wkend when u dont really feel like reading too much into the plots and stuff? and its the lovey dovey awwwwwwww kinda movie that one will definitely like! after the movie shopped ard abit and can u all believe it, i actually thought of helmi while i was in G2000 gazing at an array of neckties. reminded me of helmi and how i didnt quite like his tie at work :P so i decided to buy him ties! got m to pick out a few ties and i narrowed it down to the 2 i finally chose. but of cuz i didnt get them from G2000 cuz its kinda pricey. hee. anyways helmi... hope u like them and u muz really wear them hor!!!!!! or i'll boycott u too at work!!

"unlimited power"?

didnt work today and almost the whole sales team has to go down to expo to attend some 'motivational cum inspirational' talk by the 'world-famous' anthony robbins, stephen pierce and allan pease. given normal circumstances i wld be very happy if i didnt have to work but it was sucha torture keeping myself awake and fighting the hunger for most part of the seminar that i really thought i'd be better off at work. oh btw thankfully chummy was driving or it'd be sucha hassle travelling there!

the talk started off with allan pease, i think of all the 3 speakers he was the only one who made sense. analysed alot on human behaviour and such. pretty interesting. his part went on for abt 2hrs before we headed off for like a 20mins break. everything ard was so crowded we decided to stay put and luckily for me i rushed out in the morning to buy some rations to tide us over.

next up was anthony robbins himself. he's huge... as in like really bigggg sized. and he was so full of crap. dont understand y everyone felt so entertained. i felt awkward like as if we were in some cheesy church congregation. reminded me of the times when i used to patronise this church that alot of youths go to and 1 of the pastors ended up becoming a pop star.. *shudders* it wasnt too gd an experience for me. similarties between the two... 1) in church we'd always raise our hands and say 'hallelujah', in this seminar he made everyone raise they hands and say 'aye'. 2) in a charismatic church they always make u stand and sing along and wave ur hands ard frantically, in this seminar same lor keep makin us stand and jump and hop and wriggle to the music. 3) in church the pastor wld say the sinners' prayer and we'd repeat after him, in this seminar he made us chant some dumb verse after him over and over again, i thought they sounded like some cult! this guy spoke for abt 3.5hrs before we breaked for lunch. and again we didnt bother to go out to get anything cuz there were too many ppl ard. got AW to da bao nasi lemak from qiji. it was like the most satisfying nasi lemak i had ever had.

the last part came stephen pierce... this guy was the WORST of the 3. intolerably boring! he's like a multi-millionaire.. and so thats wad he says.. he was trying to like 'teach' us his methods to earn money over the internet. being an IT idiot if i cld close my ears im sure they'd auto fold inwards and juz not listen to him at all. gosh... he was so boring we left half way thru to go to the john little sale juz 2 halls away from us and i spent like $50+ buying toiletries and munchies. haha. we tahan until abt 6pm and by then more then a good half of the people had already left. and so this pierce guy started his sales pitch and, all askin ppl to buy his stuff. he was like selling a membership card for $9,887 and some package for $47,587!!!! thats ALOT of money dude... but im quite sure there muz have been crazy or ppl who r too rich who took them up. geeeeee... and so we left shortly after. whole day wasted juz like that. i left there, still uninspired/unmotivated/unimpressed.. or issit juz me?? i'll nv wanna go to such things again.. dun understd how come the rest of the people there seemed so enthusiastic and they all looked like they left as better people? hmmmms...

we left expo ard 630 and headed to bedok for 'bar chor mee' woooohooooo.. its been awhile since i last had that, if chummy didnt mention abt it i'd nv have thought of goin there. heh we had bar chor mee, carrot cake and chicken wings for dinner. YUMMY! i muz thank chummy for bringing me ard today and entertaining me during my most boring hour... hahahaaaaaaaaa