cny visiting...

as usual, cny is always a very boring and sickening time for me. during the past years i cld always get outta it cuz i was 'conveniently' doing shift work and all i had to go for were the meals and scoots i was outta there.. dont need to wayang and entertain the annoying ppl we call relatives. but this yr wasnt half as bad i thought it'd be. the relatives decided to go slow on me this yr? or maybe cuz i had this 'u betta not start questioning me abt the shit im trying to avoid or i'll chew ur head off' face. lol. yea so it was all good... and all the attention was on lil zachary. phew.

oh then another thing i muz touch on... why is it that my ang pow collection is decreasing year by year?? my mum came up with her conclusion that at my age i shouldnt be collecting ang pows but giving them out instead. but crap la im not married so i am entitled to collect ang pows wad! and i deserve more too! like ppl who are left on the shelf dont we deserve some sympathy and given more $ to tide them over this difficult period where we have to face all the lovey dovey families and their oh-so-cute children (yes, sarcasm intended)?!

anyways on 初二 belle, von and i decided to meet up for dinner. we really had enough of the boring visiting.. juz sitting there or getting into senseless conversations juz becuz we happened to be sitting next to each other (in btwn we'd be staring at the walls cuz we ran out of stuff to talk abt and its not like i really wanna talk). either that or i'd be busy munching away trying to look preoccupied so that they'll juz leave me alone. call me anti-social but im not able to be sociable and get myself stuck in a conversation i dont wanna be involved in(if u know what i mean). so anyways back to the outing with the girls... so belle had to start a charitable organisation called 'save the lonely people'.. lol shan't elaborate on that here. and then we ended up at jack's place having our juicy steaks cuz it was one of those days i felt like having a steak and it really doesnt come very often. oh oh and while we were eating the fireworks came on. didnt expect it but we had a rather good view from the restaurant. we didnt wanna go back yet after dinner so we decided to drive ard and we ended up at kallang waterfront where the stretch of restaurants are. we bgt a few beers and had a good time chatting as always. i love my girlies!

初三 i spent the whole day at home watching telly.. pure bliss.

初四 went over to my aunt's place today cuz 1 of my cousin's came back from korea so we decided to get together. she's been away for 2 years but came back every now and then. so i heard she's back till sept and then moving to somewhere else again but she hasnt quite decided where. at times i wish i cld be like here. give up everything for her passion and even though she doesnt earn much but at least she enjoys wad she's doing. i mean isnt that wad life is all abt? doing things that u enjoy.. i guess as long as u earn enough to make ends meet, it beats having a job u hate yet earn alot and in turn u do stuff with the money u make to try and cheer urself up? im not sure if im making sense here but yea... try deciphering it in ur own way.

now im horribly upset cuz i have to go back to sucky work in a few hours time... why does time have to pass by so quickly when i dont have to work and it seems to last eons when im waiting for work to end??!! crap! utterly crap!!!!!

Happy New Year!~~

Happy New Year!

Contradicting as this may sound.. May the year of the "rat" be free of rodents in our lives. I'm sure u all know what i mean and what i'm driving at...

May health and wealth be with us!

high tension, highly disturbed..

Wake in a sweat again
Another day's been laid to waste
In my disgrace

Stuck in my head again
Feels like I'll never leave this place
There's no escape

I'm my own worst enemy

I've given up
I'm sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say

Take this all away
I'm suffocating
Tell me what the fuck is wrong
With me

I don't know what to take
Thought I was focused but I'm scared
I'm not prepared

I hyperventilate
Looking for help somehow somewhere
And no one cares

I'm my own worst enemy

I've given up
I'm sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say

Take this all away
I'm suffocating
Tell me what the fuck is wrong
With me

Goddddddd!!!!

Put me out of my misery
Put me out of my misery
Put me out of my
Put me out of my fucking misery

I've given up
I'm sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say

Take this all away
I'm suffocating
Tell me what the fuck is wrong
With me

"Given Up - Linkin Park"

i failed in my attempt. im not surprised, im juz not equipped to be able to pit myself against someone in her own territory. for the record, u weren't the only one losing sleep over this. i'll stay... but the question again is for how long? my heart is no longer there. i know not who i can trust anymore. friends or foe, i cant differentiate anymore. best is i juz keep really quiet and hope this nagging problem goes away. well... will it ever?

no more drama.. i am a simpleton.

So tired, tired of all this drama
You go your way and I'll go my way
I need to be free
I'm so tired, tired, tired from all this drama

Broken heart again
Another lesson learned
Better know your friends
Or else you will get burned
Gotta count on me
'Cos I can guarantee
That I'll be fine

No more pain
No more pain
No more drama in my life
No one's gonna make me hurt again

Why'd I play the fool
Go through ups and downs
Knowing all the time
You wouldn't be around
But maybe I like the stress
'Cos I was young and restless
But that was long ago
I don't wanna cry no more

No more pain, no more pain
No more games
Messin' with my mind
No more drama in my life
No one's gonna make me hurt again, no more
No more tears, I'm tired of crying every night
No more fears, I really don't wanna fight
No more drama in my life
I don't ever wanna hurt again
Wanna speak my mind, wanna speak my mind

Oh, It feels so good
When you let go of all the drama in your life
Now you're free from all the pain
Free from all the games
Free from all the pain
Free from all the stress
To find your happiness

I don't know
Only God knows where the story ends for me
But I know where the story begins
It's up to us to choose
Whether we win or lose
And I choose to win

(No more pain, no more pain, tired of hurting
(No more games)
Tired of your playin' games with my mind
No more drama in my life
No more, no more, no more
No more, no more, no more
No more tears, no more crying every night
No more waking me up in the morning with your disturbing phone calls
Leave me alone, go ahead


(No more pain) No more, I'm tired
No more games, I'm tired, I'm so tired
(No drama) No more, no more
(No more in my life)
No more, no more, no more, no more, no more

(No more drama)
I'm tired of all the drama
(No more drama)
Go 'head, go 'head
(No more drama)
Your demons gettin' out of my face
Goin' out my life
(No more drama)
I'm about to lose my mind
Lord help me, help me sing

No more drama

Oh help me sing
I need a piece of mind
A piece of mind, piece of mind
Well, I need
I need to know that you agree
Oh no, oh no
No more, no more, no more drama
No more drama in my, in my life

So tired, I'm so tired
So tired, tired of all this drama
Go ahead with all your drama

"No More Drama - Mary J. Blige"

i think throughout my whole working life, however short it may be, today has been by far the most dramatic day. i dont understand why ppl muz behave the way they do? defensive, aggresive and everyone seems to have a hidden agenda. am i the only simple person left on this planet? am i really wrong to wanna give up, pack up and leave? i mean how fun is it having to feel like a headless chicken walking around in a live firing range, not knowing when i'll be shot down. hello people, im only here to earn a decent living, and mind u im not being paid big bucks for me to tolerate the immense nonsense. why muz everyone trample on each other? why cant we work together, help each other and juz fucking get things done so we can all call it a day? i dont wanna be caught amidst any tussles over money or power, i honestly dont give a fucking damn abt any of that. seriously... u people really need to get a life. concentrate on other things that gives u a better quality lifestyle. whatever that may be.. for now, please fucking leave me alone!

pre-cny gathering..

had a mini get-together at a friend's place today. it was fun. supposed to be a lunch thingy but it dragged on to dinner and watching dvds till midnight. no complains whatsoever cuz it was good company, altho the last part of watching the sex in the city dvds evolved into trying-to-stay-awake campaign. poor chums. haha. thanks for dyeing my hair. now i need to be very conscious of not sitting under the lights or it'd be too obvious?! -grumbles- :P

anyways, moving along.. while chattin with a friend a certain topic arosed. don't really know how to put into words but in short its abt how a certain individual has started to make me feel repulsive and disgusted towards the actions and behaviour. i have examples to testify y im feeling this way. its not juz baseless allegations. and i have to be very diplomatic and tactful abt this cuz who knows if that individual will ever chance upon my blog? in any case i shall leave it as it is and not state the examples. my only advice if you ever get to see this and by some weird chance u think i might juz be referring to u... yes, u. pls get a fucking life of ur own... wake up, its time to move on.....

1) the world DOES NOT revolve around u.
2) everything is NOT juz about u.
3) DONT conveniently start blaming someone when something bad happens, or something against ur liking happens.
4) DO NOT treat another person as ur spare, ppl are not there for u to fall back on.
5) please brush up on ur english, think u really need to improve ur vocabulary. we're finding it hard to understand u. and no, we're not abt to start improving our mandarin for ur sake.

alrights.. i shall be a meanie no further. if u really think im referring to u, try comforting urself. 'im sure ah fun is not referring to me' repeat that 10 times and u'll be fine. i personally assure that.

peace out.

rage against the machine.. or against the man?

Killing in the name of!

Some of those that were forces are the same that bore crosses

Well now you do what they told ya

Those who died are justified, for wearing the badge, they're the chosen whites
You justify those that died by wearing the badge, they're the chosen whites

Some of those that were forces are the same that bore crosses

Killing in the name of

And now you do what they told ya
And now you do what they told ya, now you're under control
And now you do what they told ya!

Those who died are justified, for wearing the badge, they're the chosen whites
You justify those that died by wearing the badge, they're the chosen whites

Come on!

Fuck you, I won't do what you tell me
Fuck you, I won't do what you tell me!

Motherfucker!

"Killing in the Name of - Rage Against the Machine"

as u all can see i have alot of anger in my system.. pardon me and the song lyrics i've posted above. i juz dont understand how such a person can exist in this world??! i know your english is not very good but im sure u'll have heard of this world called 'ashamed'? yes, pls be very ashamed of urself. i despise u! *spits* if u think u're doing alot of work think again... think VERY HARD. yes u may stay late at times but issit productive? NO! i wash my hands off u.. its high time u wake up ur idea cuz ur lil shock absorber here is leaving... very soon. may all the shit befall on u and that u be immensely covered in it.

*Disclaimer: I AM NOT ANTI-CHRIST!*

Muse - Time is Running out

how appropriate... dedicated to the one biggest a**hole around me..

I think I'm drowning
Asphyxiated
I wanna break this spell
That you've created

You're something beautiful
A contradiction
I wanna play the game
I want the friction

You will be the death of me
You will be the death of me

Bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it

Our time is running out (more like YOUR time is running out, oh wad difference does it make to YOU anyway? YOU don't ever do anything in a timely manner! NO F*CKING SENSE OF URGENCY!!!)
Our time is running out
You can't push it underground
You can't stop it screaming out

I wanted freedom
Bound and restricted
I tried to give you up
But I'm addicted

Now that you know I'm trapped sense of elation
You'd never dream of
Breaking this fixation

You will squeeze the life out of me

Bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it

Our time is running out
Our time is running out
You can't push it underground
You can't stop it screaming out
How did it come to this?
Oh

You will suck the life out of me

Bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it

Our time is running out
Our time is running out
You can't push it underground
You can't stop it screaming out
How did it come to this?
Oh

"Time is Running out - Muse"