its been a really long time......

been awfully long since i last blogged. not sure if i wanna revive it actually and if i do whether i still wanna do it on this same page. while in the midst of deciding i thought i'd change the template abit.. not really sure of how to do things around here anymore.

so much has changed ever since i last blogged. i dont mind my job. im still stuck with the same teaching one. wanna make a change on that but again im stuck at the crossroads of not really knowing what to do. *sigh* why is it that some ppl seem to have so much passion and conviction in what they wanna do and yet poor me here is totally clueless on that?

anyways i'm really supposed to be like marking test scripts instead of even trying to blog and so farewell.. till we meet again.. here or someone else.. now and in the near future.. we shall see..

*i wonder if anyone still even reads my page.. im thinking no. haha

i'm cute???!!

ok teaching is starting to be slightly more enjoyable even though my timetable sucks. back to back lessons in different classrooms, many days i even have to compromise on my lunch cuz i have days where i have lessons from 9-2, 8-1, 10-3. its been tough running around and school has only just reopened for a week and i'm feeling thrashed and that i need another holiday away from sg. oh wells...

anyways y i say teaching has become slightly more enjoyable is because i'm now teaching subjects that i'm familiar with and furthermore i was the one who did up the notes and all so it means i do not have to study before my students!! i also have added responsibilities now that i have a form class of 37 students. thank goodness so far they've been good. and i know for a fact they can be good its juz a matter of how long they can remain being good. in comparison to the other 2 new classes i can proudly say my students are more outspoken and fun. suits my character eh! i shall groom them to be all like me although i'm not sure if that's a good or bad thing. hahahahahahahaaaaaa.. well the good thing now is im beginning to enjoy what i'm doing! fweeeeeeeee... i hope this feeling stays around! i'm on a roll................... :D

From some survey done by the students during the recent holidays..

Open comments on the Teacher

-She is an easy-going teacher. =)

-a good teacher.

-she is easy to communicate with and fun loving, and she is able to understand the students well.

-very out-going teacher. :)

-ms fun!! haha.. during ur lesson i'm always enjoying myself learning as well. sorry when i sleep during ur lesson :q

some fb comments that i picked up from the senior buncha students that i've only just begun to start teaching this term. makes me feel good knowing that they enjoy my lessons and they like me! ooooooh!!!! hee hee...

cant believe its been so long..

whoa juz realised its been like 8mths since i last blogged? i think we've all kinda grew out of blogging... ha. not sure if anyone's still occassionally checking out each other's blogs every now and then?

so much has happened since the aug that i dont know where to start from. i guess the biggest change i've gone thru is the switch in career. i dont even know what i got myself into now is even called a career cuz the path seems to kinda die at where i currently am now. dont think theres much progression where i am. i dont regret having moved to do what im doing now, i've learnt life is too short for regrets and it hasnt been a totally horrific experience but im thinkin i might have prematurely gone into a retirement job. lol. well i guess i still have time to ponder about where to go from here, for now i'll juz stick to what im doing to gain experience and we'll see where that brings me to.. hopefully somewhere huh!

that aside life has been pretty fun with all the diving that i've been doing. im glad i took that up! though its pricey to sustain but its really awesome. aim to do rescue diver within this year. not sure if i'll take up divemaster becuz im really juz lookin at doing tis for recreation n not as a job prospect. furthermore dm's in sg hardly earn anything maybe cept for couple of free dive trips to the nearby areas if they lead a dive but thats too much responsibility for me! hahahaha

so other than all the above i think i need to save many many much much $$ to do more travelling also. top on the list is hkg!! seems so near yet so far.. *sigh* need to be able to take leave also. thats a toughie.. wad a bitch!

till we meet again.... toodles.

=updates=

so its been about 4mths since i last blogged. in the last 4mths i've done on 3 different diving trip and i have another 1 planned to redang this mth! hopefully the trip goes as planned. it has just been so amazing, do hope my finances can keep up with my enthusiasm. lol. been holding back to buy the equipment becuz i wasnt sure if i was gonna keep to this hobby but i think i'm ready to get abit of my own stuff now.

diving aside it has only been work and nothing much else to talk abt. work has still be horrid and i dont see how it will improve anytime soon. the amount of stress from the bosses, the management, the owners, the clients, my targets and goals.. its juz massive and i feel like i can hardly breathe. so many constraints yet the bosses think its ur business to straighten it out and they're only interested in seeing results and receiving good news, all others u are to absorb and buffer to ensure it doesnt get to them. sighh.... i need some balance but i dont know how to get it. well thats something for me to ponder about yea? for all those out there.. i know u're suffering too. a word of advice or rather something i practice... take things with a pinch of salt, dont get worked up, the more u get worked up the more the other party is one step closer to succeeding, theres only so much u can do-do whatever is within your means leave the rest to the others, listen more-talk less... lastly remember to breathe...

peace out.

new hobby... diving.

hey all i know its been a long time since i last blogged... to the extent that i had to crack my brains and try to remember wads the password to log on to the blog! haha.. i dont even know if anyone still checks my blog out... ayee doesnt really matter, i write to entertain myself anyways. ---> trying to make myself feel better, while obviously knowing the fact that im kinda writing to myself. lol

anyways.. nothing exciting has really happened all these months cept for the recent diving trip i went for. after much hesitation (yes, i've been wanting to pick up diving like since damn long ago) i finally got down to doing it. together with joey (the last time we planned didnt work out) michelle and the last unexpected join to the group... sarah. winnie dropped out becuz of unforseen circumstances--> i realise ppl love to use this excuse, i think its crap btw! so we decided on goin to pulau dayang cuz it was the cheapest compared to tioman and redang and being a learning trip where half the time u'd be panicking and not concentrating on what there is to see, we thought it was the wisest choice. so off we went on the last wkend of March. the rest is all history... its amazing underwater. the peace and tranquility.. and sights and serenity.. its juz puts u at peace seeing all the fishes swim by u... its juz so fucking amazing. juz only a wk after we are like about to plan for the next dive. the only downfall of this hobby is that it costs alot. but im not complaining, at least its a healthy hobby? ha well i urge all those who had always planned to pick up diving to really get down to doing it. its something u wont regret. :)

cheerios~

long overdue post..

i've been away for like so long im not sure wad to update anymore. in this absence i've gotten 2 more tattoos and many more other stuff, that some are not worth mentioning and others are for ya'll to find out.. ha.

caught the sneak preview of twilight today. slightly disappointed cuz was kinda expecting more but overall its still watchable. i've seen much worse movies. well there'll be a sequal to it.. cuz it ends with .......... ya i dont like such endings. tsk. went to orchard today and its one of those days u bump into hell lotta ppl? saw liah, lee sun sun, allyssa, jean kor.. is sg small or wad?? wanted to do xmas shoppin but didnt end up buying much. shall try again tmr after brunch. am lookin forward to it! to see me crabbie and chummy.. hope i dun get sleepy and lazy after brunch becuz there really isnt very much time left to do shopping! grrrrrr...

work has been ever so tiring.. with the implementation of a dumb new operating system. i've analysed and come to the conclusion that the only few reasons why we have been put through so much nonsense is because....
1) HI is being stingy and refuses to pay licence rights to use the good old operating system we were running on.
2) HI came up with this PMS to create high-paying jobs for the whole HUGE team who 'assists' to implement it.
3) HI came up with this PMS to force us to work like how all other dumb H properties function. 4) the gardener bribed them to make the program work towards her benefit (when it comes to the inflexibility of quoting rates).
5) HI is trying to prove their stupidity when they managed to come up with a dumb PMS but is unable to come up with a catering system to go along with it, and when asked why so.. the reason is becuz due to the downturn of the economy the catering management system project has been stalled till further notice.. so now we have to do double work! WA LA! how efficient! **refer to point 2.. maybe if we didnt have sucha huge implementation team who draw huge salaries we might have had some funds left to create the catering system?!

in short... the dumbasses are out to kill us! *spits* die u bastards! DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Fuck you, I won't do what you tell me!

Fuck you, I won't do what you tell me!

Motherfucker!

Urggh!

~Killing in the name, Rage against the machine~

meaningless conversation?

someone had a craving for roti prata so i suggested cheese prata at pasir panjang.. which she 'cleverly' linked it to being near pasir ris.. lol. maybe cuz both places had pasir in it? so it can also mean pasir panjang is near bukit panjang which is in turn near bukit timah? woohoo! hahahahahahahaaaaaa had a damn bloody good laugh! :P in the end also didnt make it to eat any prata... hiaks.

watched the coffin and saw v over this weekend... kinda disappointing. the coffin wasnt half as scary i thought it'd be and im not exactly a saw fan so yea, not much plot to begin with. so they ended it off in sucha way there'd still be saw vi... still think REC is the best i've watched in a long time.. y'all should go catch it if u havent!

sigh so sad the weekend has come to an end already. it'd be a long long week ahead. so not lookin forward to it........................ good night.. at least i get to do something i like before i have to go to work again. sleep... i hope i wake up a happy, chirpy person!

'Day after day I must face a world of strangers

Where I don't belong, I'm not that strong

It's nice to know that there's someone I can turn to

Who will always care, you're always there

When there's no getting over that rainbow

When my smallest of dreams won't come true

I can take all the madness the world has to give

But I won't last a day without you

Touch me and I end up singing

Troubles seem to up and disappear

You touch me with the love you're bringing

I can't really lose when you're near

If all my friends have forgotten half their promises

They're not unkind, just hard to find

One look at you and I know that I could learn to live

Without the rest, I found the best..'

when u and i collide..

my friend... dont assume u can read me like a book. when i let my defences down becuz u are a close friend and let u into my life is doesnt mean what u see is all there is to me..

i'm sorry i didn't read the signs and collided head on with u.. into something i never foresee was going to happen in the next hundred years.

i'm sorry u felt i've let u down when to begin with i knew shit abt what the heck was going on. i only realised recently only to find out i've already been deemed a liar when i had absolutely no intention of lying at all.

question is, am i even sorry? or am i juz being nice? i cld choose to confront u which im holding back cuz knowing me... it might turn out ugly, which is something i dont want cuz u are.. afterall.. a good friend. seriously, would u prefer to thrash this out? i dont want any of us to come out being bitter and all...

now i dunno how to close this chapter.. as much as u dunno how to. as much as she doesnt know how to. lets juz all hang then. till we find a solution if theres even one?

"If I am

Only here to watch you as you suffer,

I will let you down...

The answers we find,

Are never what we had in mind.

So we make it up as we go along...

You don't talk of dreams

I won't mention tomorrow.

And we won't make those promises that we can't keep..."

lazing & drinking my days away..

past few days haven't had much to do so i've caught up on abit of telly... i was watchin "Who's line is it anyway" i used to love that show. damn fricking hilarious! suddenly a thought came across my mind its like sucha simple pleasure in life yet i dont get to enjoy simple things like that? i seriously dont want my life to go on the way it is for the past year. its been too long, too much to take and its slowly eating me inside.

i wanna move on, i have to move on. then again life is always about wanting something but not being able to get it? now i got myself stuck in something i dunno how to get myself out of or do i even wanna get myself outta it? u see.... me life stinks.

so glad im on leave for 1 day tmr... at least i can avoid the monday blues. u all will not understand how precious juz goin on ONE day leave means to me. laze laze laze laze laze.......... let me hope and pray that nobody from the office or clients calls me tmr.... *rolls eyes*

hello.. its been a bloody long time.

yes trust me i know its been like a month since i got down to blogging.. there has been so many instances whereby i mention "i will definitely blog this down!" but yea knowing me i never quite got down to doing and once the moment passes, my memory fails me. ha like whats new?

time is never on my side. tell me i have bad time management skills but i seriously dont think the problem lies with me? why can't i go through a simple day like how others do.. a day where i can say "ok, time to go home cuz i've finished my work." i can never relate to that becuz my work is neverending.. i never go through a day feeling like i've accomplished enough and done all i am required to.. is this the way it has to be? alright enough of my endless grumbling...

moving on.....

the past week has been a queer one. my emotions are hard to decipher and even harder to control? shan't elaborate any further till i substantiate what im feeling?

"This ain't a movie no

No fairy tale conclusion ya'll

It gets more confusing everyday

Sometimes it's heaven sent

Then we head back to hell again

I hang up you call

We rise and we fall

And we feel like just walking away

As our love advances

We take second chances

Though it's not a fantasy

I still want you to stay

Take it slow

Maybe we'll live and learn

Maybe we'll crash and burn

Maybe you'll stay, maybe you'll leave,

maybe you'll return

Maybe another fight

Maybe we won't survive

But maybe we'll grow

We never know"

hello bello...

a brain fucking moment while chatting with belle...

[aђ fﻥй]™ says:
theres nothin much to watch on the movies
[aђ fﻥй]™ says:
except alot of local shit
BeLLe @ Work says:
true.. hahaha.. but i'm kinda in a movie mood
BeLLe @ Work says:
what show are u showing?
[aђ fﻥй]™ says:
har
BeLLe @ Work says:
har?
[aђ fﻥй]™ says:
wad show am i showing
[aђ fﻥй]™ says:
i dun show shows
[aђ fﻥй]™ says:
wtf u talking abt
BeLLe @ Work says:
hahahhaha
BeLLe @ Work says:
sorry laaaa
BeLLe @ Work says:
i'm sleepy

its been long while..

haven't had the time or patience to get down to blogging which explains my absence of almost a month away from here... work is sucking the life out of me. its juz terrible. am still wondering why i work so hard for? again it always boils down to the stinking thing called responsibility i have instilled in me. something that ppl nowadays lack of. my word of advice for ppl who just started out fresh into the workforce. be humble, work alot-talk very little and do not complain becuz u have not earned the fucking right to. damn it..

last friday was a day which i did not know to be happy or sad about. it was the departure of my best friend from work.. my chummy which evolved from just a colleague from another department to my boss to my confidante and really a very very good friend. i'll miss the days we've spent together at work. and of cos everyone has been asking wad'll happen to me after u leave, i seriously do not know. i'll never be able to find another 'partner' like u.. but that aside, im really happy that u made it out of the dumps that we're still stuck in. i really wish u well and that we'd still be in constant contact even after u've left ok?

"How do I say goodbye to what we had?
The good times that made us laugh
Outweigh the bad.

I thought we'd get to see forever
But forever's gone away
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.

I don't know where this road
Is going to lead
All I know is where we've been
And what we've been through.

If we get to see tomorrow
I hope it's worth all the wait
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.

And I'll take with me the memories
To be my sunshine after the rain
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday."

It's So Hard To Say Goodbye To Yesterday - Boyz II Men

another lazy sunday..

had great plans to spend the day with jilly but she came down with a bad tummyache... poor kiddo. hope she's feeling better now. u better get well soon... i still owe u a jap buffet dinner for your bday. in actual fact i have craving for sashimi. hahahaaaaaa

ended up meeting tg for coffee at starbucks and talking crap. i actually miss the times when the millenia starbucks had outside seating and we used to spend most of our days there after work talking nonsense, smoking and juz chilling out after a hard day's work. at that time starbucks was like my poison, something i cldnt get past a day without. oh wells it might not be a bad thing that they moved into the mall, think that move saved me ALOT of money.

after coffee went on to watch the mummy.. the seats at grand cathay suck. i didnt mean the location of the seats becuz we booked the tix so that was fine. i meant like everytime the person next to u moves u can feel it. it was damn annoying and it actually made me dizzy. the movie was ok.. action-packed. the kinda no brainer show suitable for viewing on a sunday. although it was weird how they switched in between english and mandarin. i mean i know its supposed to be as such becuz the title is like "THE MUMMY: TOMB OF THE DRAGON EMPEROR".. but to see michelle yeoh speak mandarin (not fantastic) in the beginning and then nearing the end she began to speak in fluent english.. and i was thinking to myself they had english classes back then cuz she's like immortal? wah seh she took the time to upgrade herself in her 2,000+ years... got herself english-educated. hahahahahaaaaaaa but still it was enjoyable to watch la.. =)

ok now im so dreading to go back to work in a few hours time... got tons of deadlines to meet, many already passed the due dates. sigh i feel like im so gonna die. everyday is like a struggle at work and i can only attribute it to 1 a**hole.. seriously, u're a f***ing pain in the a**.. u should really get a life and perhaps get a job which suits ur competence and capability.. which u know the match of such a job is zilch.... and like u say "watch out, what comes around goes around" may this befall on u too... burn........

National Day Parade Preview 020808

The overhyped-up highlight of the whole parade.... dig in! its almost 2 minutes long!

been another bad week..

"Not from the stars do I my judgment pluck;
And yet me thinks I have astronomy,
But not to tell of good or evil luck,
Of plagues, of dearths, or seasons' quality;
Nor can I fortune to brief minutes tell,
Pointing to each his thunder, rain and wind,
Or say with princes if it shall go well,
By oft predict that I in heaven find:
But from thine eyes my knowledge I derive,
And, constant stars, in them I read such art
As truth and beauty shall together thrive,
If from thyself to store thou wouldst convert;
Or else of thee this I prognosticate:
Thy end is truth's and beauty's doom and date."

[aђ fﻥй]™ says:
i needed a massage so i called my friend and then we ended up goin for a massage then we got hungry after that so we had a big meal, we felt fat after that so we went swimmin and we felt damn awake after that so we went for a movie.. ---> that was how i spent my sunday. wad a nice summary..

am getting lazy to blog... till next time, im bothered. ciaos......

i've got happy feet!

i brought my new digicam to work on Friday and took some pictures in the office with the 2 silly girls.. created a collage of some of the better pics. ha. and then they decided to announce something that should have been effected long ago but its really nothing to shout about. and so we got our incentive bonus for last year.. oh wells its really better then nothing so we shouldn't be complaining about the amount at all? i mean so many people have come and gone without it so we should be happy that we are the very first batch who actually sticked around to collect it?! ha

had to cancel the JB trip becuz wendy's relative passed away and she wasn't gonna be at work. gave wala a miss cuz i didn't feel like i was up to shirlyn's rock n roll stuff. ended up having a drink with jillie at the brewerkz in kallang and then after that to watch "21" at cine. gee the only seats they had left were 2nd from the front. i felt like my neck and back was gonna snap somewhere in btwn the movie and it was so frickin cold! practically turned into an ice cube.. bbbrRrRrr! and the show was really draggy, boring. jill, we shld have juz watched deception instead but the shitheads didnt have the poster up on the 5th floor so we didn't know what show it was! *spits*

and becuz of the 2nd row seats we felt that we had to pamper ourselves today so we made an appointment to go do foot reflexology. and then jill suggested to go for the dr fish thingy at the flyer, to let the fish feed on our feet. sounds sick. damn fricking ticklish! its a once in a lifetime thing. both of us deduced that after trying this fish therapy thingy and the flyer we prob wont go back there for a 2nd time? and then we also realised we shouldn't go back to the fish thingy cuz why should we be paying them to feed their fish??! hello we were the phish food so they should be paying us?! haha took some pics...

maciam tiger beer lady... this is jillie trying to promote the 30mins fish therapy + 10mins shoulder massage at $78!

jillie's foot

my foot!

my feet being phish food

we were bored while waiting to be phish food

yea... me being spastic as always!

so after being phish food for 30mins we needed to feed ourselves and we ended up at glutton's bay.. had chix wings, stingray, hokkien mee.. the usual i have when i go there. and then we went over to marina sq to get me my green tea ice cream! mmMmmmmm.. i think its addictive. dammitz. and its not cheap lo $3.80 for a single scoop. bleh! ok so thats me sunday well spent with jillie.. now we're sulking abt having to go work in a few hours time. *sigh*

im hoping it gets betta..

am trying to recuperate from a very bad week at work. im upset with everyone and i really dont see why i should be the one caught in between yet still the stinking responsibility in me forbids me to juz up and walk away... well i hope its over.

went to watch the happening on friday after work. duh show but mark wahlberg is cute as always.

sat i was supposed to go to work but ah wong called and disuaded me to go and i think it kinda worked cuz i ended up at kenko and signed up for a 12 session massage package and i ended up using 2 sessions at 1 go. went to work to sort out abit of stuff and pack up my desk becuz of some dumbass vip coming on tues.. like we really care right? ended up at wala of course and we had val with us.. but half the time she was fighting to stay away. she was tearing as if her bf juz dumped her or something and i was like stop it la before ppl ard us think im the one who dumped u! hahaha

now im preparing to go out to meet ah yin to watch another movie.. i think sg is so fucking boring.. i really dont wanna die here! dunno wad show also... the adam sandler one? luckily im driving kor's car else i think i'd be too lazy to go anywhere lo. im beginning to think im bored without mummy ard cuz on sundays she'd normally settle my meals. and im very hungry now.. thats the only reason why i got up at 4pm else i think i can sleep thru the whole day if i didnt have a stomach...?

sucky week..

had a long sucky week at work and the upcoming one should be just the same. because of the 1 sucky event im handling. cant wait for it to be over.

nothing much to blog about cuz its all been nothing but work. i need a break soon before i snap. im thinking whether i shld juz go check out the websites when i have more time, book an air ticket to some unexpected destination, get my leave approved, fix my accommodation then just pack up and leave? i might just do that... fweeeee

oh i went to the PC fair at Suntec yesterday. u all must be thinking im crazy right cuz im normally not the kinda person to go squeeze with like half of the sg population just to get a slightly better deal? well i happened to be at work yesterday and chums was also there so i went ahead lo since i wanted to get a new digicam. so i ended up buying a cam which was over my budget.. when i ever have the time to finally fix it up i suppose it'll mean u guys will see more pictures posted on my blog?

oh yah i went to wala too.. left work at ard a lil past 8 and of course we cldn't get any seats so we were standing for a good 2 sets. geeee... i cldnt feel my legs after that. and then my bestie had to leave me with her friend when i didnt feel like entertaining lo. luckily bello was ard. muahahaha.. bestie, pls hor next time wanna leave someone or something to me make sure its someone better looking or something more valuable?!!! hahahahahaaaaaaa oh oh oh... and shirlyn walked past us and smiled and waved at us but dumbie belle didnt realise. she was so cute la! fweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

the weekend gone just with a blink of the eye....

this weekend passed me by wayyyyyyy too quickly. lemme recap on the whole string of not so many events...



friday
went to dinner after work... went home shortly after. felt sleepy (1st time in a very long while i felt sleepy at 11pm!) and sickly, popped a cold panadol and a muscle relaxant and went to bed. woke up the next day at 4pm?!



saturday
was supposed to JB with "birdy" but it was pouring.. really heavily so we called it off. i dragged myself outta bed ard 5pm cuz i was starving. met up with tg, may, tee and ed for steamboat dinner. kinda enjoyable cuz of the weather. was gonna catch SATC at a lil past midnight. had alot of time to waste so we went for a beer. i love SATC! enjoyed every single bit of it.



sunday
got up and met belle.. she accompanied me to have my messy hair fixed. went to a new hairdresser today. not too bad, pretty inexpensive too. i might juz use her from now on.. jason irritates me la. he always makes me wait way too long for a sucky hair cut. ha. but i like him.. he's damn funny.. still.. he's not worth the time and distance for me to travel to go visit him!! did some shoppin and bought some stuff while waitin to catch kung fu panda. i thought it was funny but belle didnt find it funny. oh wells. i like jack black. he's cool. oh and we bumped into taxidoor and von who were gonna watch SATC so we ended up meeting for dinner at glutton's bay. it was an ok dinner.. chums, i agree that it wasnt as satisfying. i wonder why though? ok now its dreadful having to think that i have to be back at work in abt 9hrs time! *hyperventilates and passes out* maybe then i wldn't have to go to work? ha... nice try. bleaH!

a short story i came up with... enjoy!

there came a new boss named Bobby.. who was really only a white dog in disguise.

and Bobby had a defiant subordinate called Sue Lyn aka the Ultimate Bitch..

Moral of the story: Bobby should really stay out of Sue Lyn's way cuz she really doesn't give two hoots about him cuz he is afterall only the 2nd in command and... a white dog in disguise. period. *scratch ass*

*lol im mad... the pre monday jitters getting to me! wahahahahahahahahahaaaaaaa

take me away..

this time what I want is you

there is no one else

who can take your place

this time you burn me with your eyes

you see past all the lies

you take it all away

I've seen it all

and it's never enough

it keeps leaving me needing you

take me away

take me away

I've got nothing left to say

just take me away

I try to make my way to you

but still I feel so lost

I don't know what else I can do

I've seen it all

and it's never enough

it keeps leaving me needing you

take me away

take me away

I've got nothing left to say

just take me away

don't give up on me yet

don't forget who I am

I know I'm not there yet

but don't let me stay here alone

this time what I want is you

there is no one else

who can take your place

I've seen enough

and it's never enough

it keeps leaving me needing you

~Lifehouse, take me away..